Fly by Vent

Yeah. I'm way behind and don't have time to catch up right now. The real world has been working my ass off so very little time for much of anything. However, I did steal a few precious moments of life for myself and saw that my favorite Greekboy mentioned that he was thinking about doing a once a week thing..for fun, not art with ex Betty drummer Hamboussi. Now alot of people may get mad at me for this but so be it. I am disappointed that Con would even think about doing this. He has so many things.. good things happening right now that I can't imagine why he would want to do such a thing. I know that the guys are friends but I really don't want to see Constantine up on a stage with Ham again. Be friends, hang out, party, have a good time but keep the music and the careers seperated from the friendship. Constantine is doing great with TWS and might do Brel, then there is supposed to be a solo album in the works to be released in 2007. His recent mini solo tour was great. Don't know if another leg of this tour is still in the works or not but I really dread the thought that after coming this far Constantine would take 3 steps back and imo and my opinion only..I think playin' with Ham on stage for fun or for art is exactly that. 3 steps back.
Why isn't Ham busy with his Outlaws and performing with them..whoever they are? Why is he trying to talk Constantine into playin' with him..even if it is only once a week? Take that once a week and try out for new Broadway shows, work once a week on the solo cd. Anything but hit the stage again with Ham. Maybe Constantine doesn't want the same things that I want for him. What I want for him doesn't matter. In fact, when it comes down to it..my aggravation isn't about what Constantine wants. It's about me. What I want to see Con do. What would make me happy and what I would enjoy. So I have discovered that I am selfish, self centered, and a whine ass. Having realized this..I'm glad I got this vent out of my system and the whole damn thing can be ignored. AH!! I'm done and feel much better! Now I can concentrate on my job with no distractions!!!